Accepting Our (My) Insecurities

June 17, 2015 , In: Figuring it Out, Motherhood, Personal , With: 2 Comments
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I have insecurities.  Many are mental (is my life going where I want it to?) but many are physical.  I think everyone has these.  Even people we look up to, or think are just perfect, have these.

But sometimes I feel like everyone else out there has it all going on, and I’m just left behind in my little corner wondering about my little world.

I tend to get on with things 99% of the time, but one major insecurity I’ve always had has been… my sight.  Specifically, my glasses.

Friends, there are two reason there is nary a photo of me here, or in existence, of me in my glasses.

1. My vision is so bad that when I wear my glasses in photos, they distort my face.  How bad is my vision?  -10.5.  If you don’t know how bad that is, you’ve probably never met anyone with that poor of a prescription.  I think I’ve met one person – my entire life.

2. I am TOTALLY self conscious.  I feel like everyone is just staring at how distorted my face looks through my lenses.  The sides are not so thick, as I choose thick frames and lenses can be quite compressed these days – thank goodness.

Screen Shot 2015-05-08 at 9.15.54 AMMost of my life, I don’t think people even knew I wore glasses as I started wearing contacts when I was 12.  I was a big water skier, and my mom was always scared I was going to hit the dock.  ha!

But then… I was diagnosed with an eye condition where during flare times (which occur roughly every other year) I have to put steroid drops in my eyes.  This means, no contacts… for months and months.  I may feel self conscious about my glasses, but I’d rather keep my eyesight and listen to my opthamologists.

So, I wear my glasses.  I always cringe when I see someone I know.  I secretly want to shrink in the corner.  I want to say – I’m forced to wear these!  It’s not my choice!  I’m really cooler than these thick lenses!  Blame decades of popular culture and the nerd with the thick glasses.

It’s gotten better.  I don’t feel SO self conscious but I really really don’t think I’ll ever get over it.  I’ll always feel better with contacts.  I’ll never feel 100% confident.  It sucks, but it is what it is.

Do you have any insecurities you don’t think you’ll ever get over?  Or am I alone?!  I’d love to hear.

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  1. Reply

    I think you look fabulous with & without your glasses! Of course I have insecurities, probably too many to name but Ill tell you what…they get fewer and fewer as I get older and older (ahem…wiser?).

      • Michelle
      • June 18, 2015
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      Thanks Amanda – that’s very sweet. I think everyone has insecurities – even people we think have it all. I agree though, as I get older I am definitely more confident. At least we get that for getting older!

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Michelle Little

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Originally from the prairies and now in Montreal, I love exploring new places, eating great food and modern design. I'm mom of two wild things and paper and cake make me happy. Photographing your cutie family would make me very happy.

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