In the last few months I’ve had both the pleasure of my youngest son turning three and growing slightly more independent and both children consistently (finally) sleeping past 5:45 and through the night which means I feel the most alert that I have in the past 6 years (counting pregnancy – ’cause who sleeps well when they’re pregnant?)
I also read all four Caitlin Moran books which my sister gave me for my birthday. Thanks ‘sis! The last one I read was How to Build A Girl, which for $6.92 on Amazon is probably the best bang for your buck going. It’s really about the discovery of who you are.
Here’s a quote:
“And so you go out into your world, and try and find the things that will be useful to you. Your weapons. Your tools. Your charms. You find a record, or a poem, or a picture of a girl that you pin to the wall and go, ‘Her. I’ll try and be her. I’ll try and be her—but here.’ You observe the way others walk, and talk, and you steal little bits of them—you collage yourself out of whatever you can get your hands on. You are like the robot Johnny 5 in Short Circuit, crying, ‘More input! More input for Johnny 5!’ as you rifle through books and watch films and sit in front of the television, trying to guess which of these things that you are watching—Alex Carrington Colby walking down a marble staircase; Anne of Green Gables holding her shoddy suitcase; Cathy wailing on the moors; Courtney Love wailing in her petticoat; Dorothy Parker gunning people down; Grace Jones singing ‘Slave to the Rhythm’—you will need when you get out there. What will be useful. What will be, eventually, you.” –p.297
She tries out being all sorts of different things and near the end, upon reflection, creates a list of what to keep and what to throw away. It was genius.
I think that this is an exercise that all of us could use at anytime we are ready for a change. I have to be honest that I could not have done this exercise over the past five years. I was pretty much just going for the ‘holding on by a thread’ mode and I kind of just had to go with the flow.
But now that I am feeling a bit…. fresher… I thought about this and came up with a list which I will shorten so that this blog post doesn’t get too wordy.
What would you keep and what would you throw away?
Also sorry about being so silent lately.